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Alisa's back
Marius4344 : You should post on my blog again.
SlceOStyle : why?
Marius4344 : Because I'm too lazy to.
And there you have it.
The thing about me is that I don't like to make people mad. I'm extremely opinionated but I'll usually save it until I know you won't hate me when the conversation is over. That is something Danny found out tonight.
But you know, there are some things that just aren't true. Email hoaxes are one of them. Keep that in mind. DO IT!
So, I've been running. A lot. 100 miles in the last 100 days before the election, all in my "Run Against Bush" t-shirt. In this time I have built up calf muscles that you would believe. Seriously, you wouldn't believe it. I knew I gained muscle easily, but I had no idea that my legs would turn into STEEL. I think I'm becoming the Terminator...
... which may be a good thing since I am moving to California in 17 days.
So much has happened in the last couple of months that would make most normal people run away from this idea. I'm just not a normal person. I don't want a "real" job or a "house" or "the ability to be financially sound." In a way, I think my ideas are very responsible. To be able to do the things I want, I am going to have to give things up. I have to weigh the pros and cons. However, most people think I'm just nuts for wanting to travel the world and move and NEVER work 9-5. It's weird.... to them. To me, there isn't really another option.
So, I've always been a science nerd. Most people don't know that about me, because I don't act like a science nerd.... but I am. I sooo am. I'm like the Queen of the male Science Nerds. As early as Kindergarten, when I knew the name and order of the planets and no one else seemed to, I've been a fan of science.
So, say you've grown up with something your whole life and suddenly, these ideas, which have a factual background, are being questioned in 10th grade biology by some kid who thinks it's impossible for them to be true. It seems so.. Copernican. Now, clearly, to those who had religion in their lives before, say, last August, this idea makes more sense... but not to science nerds.
So last August, I was amidst a battleground of ideas. How could a science nerd knowingly accept something that makes no sense compared to the rest of the earth? Science has been getting in the way of my accepting and understanding religion like nothing else. Unless you grow up in this kind of atmosphere, there is no way for you to understand what this is like, to this extreme. I question everything. I don't always make this public awareness (as I act like anyone cares what I'm thinking) but I have such a hard time dealing with conflicting ideas. And they're everywhere. Every good side has its bad. And you want so badly to believe, but when you know so much about evolution and physics and psychology you can't HELP but have these feelings.
For a long time I felt like I was caught. I'm reading about Jesus and trying SO HARD to make sense of what happened and it's not working at all. I felt like I was at a crossroads and there was like... a Denny's on one corner and an IHOP on the other. It wasn't that I didn't believe... it was that I couldn't get past these road blocks. I could see the destination and it wasn't too far, I just kept getting stopped along the way. Eventually I started reading about atheists who went out to disprove that the resurrection wasn't real... and they couldn't. They became Christians in the process. You'd think that would help more than it did.
The thing about science, though, is that there is always a margin of error. The purpose is to keep reducing the margin of error. Everything we know could someday be proven wrong.
Jesus is a really big deal. A really HUGE deal, if you will. For some people it's really easy, but it wasn't for me. I just got to a point where I couldn't not believe. Science and religion don't have to be enemies at all. There is so much that will never be explained without error and that's where faith comes in. I HAD to believe, because there was nothing standing in the way of that.
It took me so long to get past those road blocks, but getting home was the best thing that ever happened to me.
posted by jimmy at 01:00 -
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For anyone who thinks the Federal Government can't do anything right.....
...I present to you the National Park Service. They've made the jewels of America's natural wonders - the finest, most beautiful areas of our country - accessible to every American, while still keeping them wild. The rangers are well-informed and articulate, the terrain beautiful, the nature unspoilt by man. Just try to tell me that corporations with profit motives could do the same thing. God bless Teddy Roosevelt and his foresight to protect America's treasures.
Needless to say, I went to Yosemite this week, and I was utterly amazed at nature with all its glory. I took a nap on a rock next to the Merced River at the top of Nevada Fall - just surrounded by the gurgling and gushing of the river, breathing in smog-less air - and it was wonderful. (I also hiked about 8 miles, up 3,000 feet of mountain and then back down again; 3 days later, my legs are still sore.) I really need to get away like that more often.
Tomorrow, though, I'm headed off to Grand Rapids, with some Tribe people to attend a worship conference there. This could not make me happier, because (a) I'm going to a worship conference with Tribe, with whom I've reconnected to worship in ways I hadn't even dreamed of, (b) it's at my alma mater, Calvin, meaning I get to reconnect with friends from the area, and (c) I'll get to hang out with Alisa and my mom, both of whom it's been a while since I've seen. So I'm excited.
That's about all... I have to go pack now.
posted by jimmy at 23:04 -
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Two things.
First things first...
Me in my wetsuit after a nice morning of bodyboarding.
Second, I'm heading off tomorrow for a weekend of hiking and meditating in Yosemite. I'm told it's quite lovely this time of year. Living in LA makes me miss rivers and lakes and other forms of non-concrete-lined flowing fresh water. I'm hoping to get all the way up to the top of Nevada Falls and sit there for a few hours with my sketchbook and my ponderances. That'll be good times.
I am completely uncreative today. I need to recharge. Nature, here I come!
(Did I really just say that? Yep, I did. I suck.)
posted by jimmy at 18:50 -
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Another Bushism
"Our enemies are innovative and resourceful, and so are we; they never stop thinking about new ways to harm our country and our people, and neither do we."
Freudian slip?
posted by jimmy at 18:12 -
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